fEeL

i might not be a God

but i can feel the end before we get started

I'm Off To the North

People I'm off to Perak and Qedah for raya. Last year i have missed to celebrate the raya with the siblings cause of my 'Lovey Dovey' thesis and final year. This year 'balas dendam' lerr plus raya with the one i love. I just packed my clothes, to be exact i'm not really excited.

So..have to wish you all a great hari raya..for those who had exam after hari raya dont forget ur notes and books(this is for sabrina hehhee..relax babe i already been in ur situation). and for those yang drive..carefull k..maaf zahir dan batin!!!!

The Manhattan Fish Market

The stomach pain is over cause i stopped taking that pills, so i can say i'm okay now. Okay people back to my post,yesterday i went for a breakfasting at the 'The Manhattan Fish Market'. Here some of the pictures.

Macesfaces before breakfasting

The Manhattan Fish Market

Tharrdaa...the seafood platter

Happy faces after breakfasting..burrrppp..oooops soorry

Its nearly the end of Ramadhan..gonna say goodbye to Ramadhan and gonna great welcome!!to Syawal, Bye Ramadhan, hope to see you next year, Insyaallah..

stomach pain

After sahur i feel like fainting.My body in disordered condition, my stomach pain really had to be responsible for that. It was like a knife jabbing ur stomach for many times. What the F**k,its my fault for taking all those pills..the loves one must be mad if he knew this..yes he did.He asked me to stop consuming all those pills.Eeer..i cant promise but i'll try..stubborn me!!

So today i got the appointment for my last shopping spree before i'm off to kedah..am looking for new handbag and shoes.Before that gonna meet him at BTHO, i wanted to give him the pearl 'butang baju melayu' before he went back to penang.

tell you what I'm kind a romantic person~wink~(hey dont blame me for being so aquarian), lately i'm addicted to these Harvey Malaiholo's stuffs and Shelomita(ghee i loike her name)..and i did put some jazz in my ipod playlist

Harvey Malaiholo-Jerat mp3

Shelomita-Prahara Cinta mp3

Harvey Malaiholo-Begitulah Cinta mp3

ok people..cheq dah tak tahan dah..sakit sgt..xoxoxo..mwahx

weekend breakfasting

nothing much for last weekend..

i just went for break fasting with the orphanage last weekend..abg wan and kak sha organized it..its quite a long time i never met them after their vacation to sabah, abg wan..oh my God!so kurus,please dont blame kak sha for not taking care of you,coz i think she did it well..back to the event the food was awesome..but a lil bit tired we have to cook!!!..kesian abg wan n kak sha dahlah kena masak, organize the evnt lagi..for us its easier to buy the food and just 'hidang' kan easier?and plus nobody will make that sour face coz of hurt feeling..but its not their fault..dont have to mention it here(plus its ramadhan tak baik mengumpat tiaw)..


and yesterday without any plan i went out for breakfasting with my sister..no make up, with 'after crying face'(someone at home did make me cry..selfish tul!!nyampah)..





i dont know why nowadays i'm too sensitive..i'm not having my girly due but i'm too SENSITIVE!!and i hate this feeling..sometimes its hurting me..am i too jealous????..sometimes i think i'm the one who 'cari pasal'..always think 'bukan2' ..

STOP IT NADYA!!!

tHE LovE iS dELicIouS

the one i miss..

..the one i wish i could hug..

You and I are like peanut butter and jelly, you're sweet and I'm stuck on you!

everything that entered my mouth is a sin

for all this while kan..i was so concious about my weight..i've done everything to make my body look 'delicious'..last time in school i was a bulemic..everything enter my mouth was a sin for me..and yes i did the self-induced vomiting, i did used finger, toothbrush and everything that could make all the food out from my stomach..and i feel happy when my stomach is empty..do i look good at that time?..ghee totally no..i got a dull skin(lack of vitamin)and a 'cengkung' face..but i was happy at that time coz i reduce my weight to 45kg with 162 height, sgt kuruskan?..then after i enter samura my weight increased slowly..u know lah kan the 'asrama' food..oily(minyak je sekawah)..i used to eat the junk foods at night to make sure i'm awake for my stayed up, thats the only way to make sure i could finish all the add maths,physics,chemistry,biology tasks, all in one day,i'm not a gifted student like some of the SAMURIANS..that is how i increased my calories intake,and this also happened when i went to KMNS in Pilah(suxx)and UMS Sabah.In sabah i used to pampered myself with McD,BK,Kenny Rogers,Pizza Hut, seafood and all the cheezy stuff..i'm sorry to say this but i really cant eat what the Sabahan have cooked..mcm nak tak nak masak je..(rolling eyes)

am fat now..when i did complained bout my body some people keep saying 'nadya you look ok','syukur kau tak gemuk mcm syanie','dah cantik dah badan tuh'..huh?..i think i dont look ok..i got spare tyre..my fat legs..ugly sial..and rasa mcm nak potong je lebihan lemak2 tuh dgn pisau..kalau lah blh haih(dreamy face)..i really adore jessica alba's figure

i tried all kinds of pills, jamu etc such as Teh Orang Kampung(dahlah rasa mcm air longkang blerkk..), Slim Tea by Mustika Ratu(xde turun pun),NH Detoxlim(ntah saya rasa ini bukan untuk kurus tp untuk kekalkan berat bdn je..),wearing corset(this is not for kurus but for shaping..some people misunderstood about the using), slimming lotion and Sendayu Tinggi Slimming set(sgt berkesan it really detox,reshape and reduce weight slowly but ongkosnya juga perlu lebih..i used it for three months then i stopped!!)it was like throwing your money into the drain..

after all these tries i realized no shortcut to reduce your weight..only with regular exercise, discipline and good food will help..i just want a diet that can keep my boops from reducing their size,it sounds weird kan???but thats the truth coz i love my boops..any ideas?????

do i have to start my bulemics obsession back???

and now i started back my yoga routine..100 sit ups a day if only i rajin..did some belly dancing in front of the mirror..am looking forward to join sabrina's dance class insyaallah

Your Weight is Ideal

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You Need to Lose Weight?

yeah you're right i'm not totally happy with my weight..ia sgt lah tak OK!!!!

ramadhan at nando's

monday 9 oCt...

went for a break fasting with zaf, op, et and their frens at nandos klcc..

it was so awesome..

kurun tak jumpa zaf..the last time i saw her was years back in matriculation..she was so chanteq like before..

and opy she was like before..talk and talk..and talk..she still remember all the thingy thang i did with her

and et she was my 'aras'mate when i was in matric..

and i met their frens sukur n fatin

it was fun to meet them..since i miss zaf n opy tersgt2..i loewe u guys

kuiH rAya aNd baJu rAyA

on saturday..i went to The Curve plus mama wanted to buy the baking stuffs for kuih raya,so i drove her there..actually i was the one who 'menggedik' to make the kuih raya this year since i have plenty time before i started working after raya..why not kan?..at least i know how to make cakes and some kuih before i have my own family..since the family are chocoholic..so i decided to make choc moist cake and chocolate chips..it is more to modern cookies and simple to bake..i'm not good in making the traditional and complicated cakes such as kuih batang buruk,suji,makmur,tart and etc which we usually end up by buying it,it was more convenience and easy..plus i agreed with my mama the ingredients to make cakes quite expensive nowadays..so i cant blame if the cakes sellers put high price for their cakes,it worth with their afford to make it(not easy to make tau)..i was hoping my choc moist will look loike this

tempting kan??wish me luck for my baking!!!

then i feel like going to the flea market at The Curve..to find my baju raya..i dont have baju raya yet, usually i already had my baju raya at this time(xde semangat raya lsg this year)..past few days i was soo rajin surfing the net to search for the latest design of baju raya, in my mind i wanted the lace baju kebaya with big ribbon kat depan tu, i saw linda jasmin wore it in AF konsert canteq sgt dahlah dia canteq..and suddenly i was bump into this kebaya which fazura the actress wore for the FFM19

chanteqkan??classical sgt..great taste lah minah ni..

uwaa but not enough time to rush to the Jln TAR to buy the clothes some more no tailor going to sew it at this limited time before raya..here at the flea market so many choices of nice kebaya some more the sales girl name suhana was so friendly so i end up buying the white kebaya..aiyoh gotta problem with the buttons my boops da besar kew? takpelah fix it nanti with kerongsang or kecikkan my boops nih..and i'll wear it with my indonesia batik which i get it from an indon girl in sabah..and i still can wear my last year green kebaya..i've tried it just now..ey good news for me it loose lah wey(nampak sgt last year i was damn gemuk!!byk sgt mkn McD and Burger King kat Sabah!!that is what you eat when you cant adapt urself with the Sabah's food..so can i blame Sabah for makin me fat??gheee...*rolling eyes*)

i love my MALURI

yesterday..me and my family went to puncak alam..our second house,it was a boring place..thats why when mama asked me to company her there 1000 excuses i gave to her..i'm not going to move there..even mama asked for many times for us to move out from kepong to puncak alam..the others in the family just ignore it..why???

the neighbourhood there quite friendly..the food cheap and nice

but we the siblings including abah not use to live in the environment

1. no KOMUTER station,which sometimes help me when i dont want to be trap in the traffic jam

2. no shopping mall at all, at least in Kepong i have Carrefour,Jusco to get all the groceries

3. no OU no The Curve no Cineleisure which just about 10 minutes driving from my Kepong

house

4. no McD no KFC no Burger King..Starbucks segala lagi lah takde

5. no friends..i cannot live without them.

6. not a suitable place for me to start my career.

7. not a safe place since there was too many Indonesian workers around..in Maluri i had 24

hours safety guard.

8. too quiet for me

9. no Astro..

10. too far from KL

i can describe this place as 'ceruk hulu place'..please dont ask me to move out..i love my MALURI

.....

..am i too sensitive..i'm too tired for all this..

..i am not created to fulfill all your wishes..

sometimes i need someone to talk

do they know when i am sad?

do they know when i cry?

do they know what i really want?

i just want the care and concern

is it too much?

fire crackers fever

today i got a good news for myself..keep it first..~wink~ ..tell u later for the coming soon blog..

rite now saya sgt teringin, mengidam, nak, mahu sampai mimpi2...

nak main firE crackers!!!!!!!!!

sape nak main fire crackers dgn saya?now its kinda hard to buy the fire crackers..uhuhu..nak gak main bunga api n mercun!!!!!![sambil hentak2 kaki n rolls on the floor]..

i'm in a mode of jiwangness..i had fall in love with the song title 'Maha Karya Cinta'..when Faizal[OIAM] sang it for the first time sungguh lah menyentuh kalbu..i'm feeling so gedik[winky~winky tiaw]..especially for the chorus part..

begitu berat melangkah

melihat kau bersamanya

adakah aku yang salah

atau hanya helah saja

ku masih mencintai diri kamu

biar kau menjauh...ku rindu

kau bagaikan udara yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup di atas dunia

tanpamu ku lemah

pasti aku tak berdaya

kerna kau maha karya cinta

biarpun kau tidak mahu

menerima kasih daku

ku kan setia bersamamu

sehingga ke akhir waktu

ku masih menyayangi diri kamu biar kau berlalu...ku rindu

kau takkan dapat aku lupakan

kerna kaulah puja cinta kita

mengajar aku erti bahagia

temanilahku semula

dengarlah pesanan daku

yang akan terus menunggu...

u can download the song here~>>> http://sephianyaandika.multiply.com/music/item/169

wUt thE LoLita saId

Not much for today..have tuna sandwich and orange juice for the sahur session..am getting bored with NASI in the morning..today the first day for my lil sis taking her PMR exam(scary huh..)..drove her to school, she showed the worried sign on her face..relax ar beb takde ape nye..gelabah je..last time i still remember how i took the exam..actually i pon worried gak last time(huhu..)..siap wat countdown tuh..how many days to go for the exam..last time at school i'm quite naughty..but naughty in a silent way but brilliant~blergh~..though am a prefect(tak responsible betul..)..uwaa how i miss my school..i miss rufaidah,muna(thats my besties)..after PMR i was sent to SAMURA,rufaidah to SEMESTI and muna to TEKUSAL..we're apart till now Muna in UTM JB..Rufaidah now in Ukraine for the doctor(balik lah watpe lama2 kat sana), i just finish my study in Sabah..sumtimes i wonder..is that true if we took picture with only three people in there, we'll be apart forever..it make sense for me lah and for them..til now apart je..

Back for today, i got a call from him..he's at her sister house..mish him too bits if i could fly..lalallalala..

i cooked beef kebab with cheezzzz for today break fast..of course lah delicious..i ate lots of them then guilty feeling appear as i finish it thinking how much calories have i taken from that cheezy and beef..sumpah tak layan mkn malam after this..here i got d survey..sabby have chosen me to do it..

5 things I would do if I were a millionaire.

1. i will find a beautician who can make me tall,thin and gorgeous(xde syukur punya org)..remove all the fat kat my ass(aku nak pakai levi's aku blk wey ..sab

take these fat and put it in ur ass)

2. i will make a grand wedding for myself and future husband..~wink~..garden

wedding must be compulsary..full with white roses..the the theme whitylicious

3. donate some of it to the orphanage and the poor(mengingati org yg susah

though dah senang itukan harus dlm Islam)

4. spend 20% of it to my family,siblings..save 30% for my future daughters and future sons(wut a good mummy nadya) and send them to Sab's dancing class huhu

5. invest and invest and invest make it more thousand million..billion..trillion

5 bad habits.

1. i love to sleep..

2. i'm kinda stubborn..

3. i love to eat..bad habit tul..selera besaQ!!!

4. love to shop til no money left..aiyoh boros amat..

5. taking my bath at night..(not good for ur health)

5 things I hate doing.

1. i hate doing nothing..like what i'm doing now

2. i hate eating..coz nowadays everything that enter my mouth is a sin for me..i hate being gemuk..

3. i hate driving when there are traffic jam and rude drivers(rasa cam nak magikkan dia jadi tikus ke katak ke..dorg jahat)

4. i hate when mama ask me to fill the petrol..(da lah mamat bangla yg jg petrol pump kat manjalara tu gatal)

5. i hate to hear my neighbour horning her car everytime she want to get in her house(bkn skali tp berkali2..sound pollution betul annoying lah summore it is rude to call ur maid that way p/s klu dia baca ni bagus lah harap insaf)

5 things I will never do.

1. doing thing that can cause pollution to our environment, especially when it comes to solid waste management at my home.

2. kill people..kill animal..am not born to be a killer

3. commit suicide though sumtime want to do it(but when think about it..dosa sial..kubur tak terima)

4. rob the banks

5. same as Bahijah not goin to work as GRO or prostitute for my living

5 things I regret doing.

not really regret. But it is more too 'lesson that i had to learn in my life'

1. my past...

2. been stupid following others decision

3. not getting good result

4. waste the money for nothing

5. waste my time for nothing

5 favourite toys or things.

1. my house

2. car

3. my gadgets

4. my laptop

5. my handbags

5 people I choose to do this.

1. opY sOfiA

2. zEtE

3. zaFriza

4.sobRinA

5. iezaWanI

going to sleep..bye..muahliciously..

wHy....??

why is it too hard?

is there any chances?

only the Creator know..

hEarT

am quite addicted to this indonesian song rite now, before this also got addicted wit the song by Dygta and Andina 'CINTAMU'..i realize i'm more into the indonesian songs more than typical malay song huhuhu well javanese in my blood,am proud of it wey!..back to this Heart song, so shweet the combination of the shweet voice..make me flew in the air..lalallala

Disini kau dan aku

terbiasa bersama

menjalani kasih sayang

bahagia kudenganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah

ku ukir nama kita berdua

disini syurga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain

mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar

sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayang ku akan hilang

if u love somebody could we be this strong

i will fight to win

our love will conquer all

wouldn't reach my love

even just one night

our love will stay in my heart

my heart..

see i told ya..i'm in the air now...lallalallalallala..

i'm quite weng nowadays..don bother me