everything that entered my mouth is a sin
for all this while kan..i was so concious about my weight..i've done everything to make my body look 'delicious'..last time in school i was a bulemic..everything enter my mouth was a sin for me..and yes i did the self-induced vomiting, i did used finger, toothbrush and everything that could make all the food out from my stomach..and i feel happy when my stomach is empty..do i look good at that time?..ghee totally no..i got a dull skin(lack of vitamin)and a 'cengkung' face..but i was happy at that time coz i reduce my weight to 45kg with 162 height, sgt kuruskan?..then after i enter samura my weight increased slowly..u know lah kan the 'asrama' food..oily(minyak je sekawah)..i used to eat the junk foods at night to make sure i'm awake for my stayed up, thats the only way to make sure i could finish all the add maths,physics,chemistry,biology tasks, all in one day,i'm not a gifted student like some of the SAMURIANS..that is how i increased my calories intake,and this also happened when i went to KMNS in Pilah(suxx)and UMS Sabah.In sabah i used to pampered myself with McD,BK,Kenny Rogers,Pizza Hut, seafood and all the cheezy stuff..i'm sorry to say this but i really cant eat what the Sabahan have cooked..mcm nak tak nak masak je..(rolling eyes)
am fat now..when i did complained bout my body some people keep saying 'nadya you look ok','syukur kau tak gemuk mcm syanie','dah cantik dah badan tuh'..huh?..i think i dont look ok..i got spare tyre..my fat legs..ugly sial..and rasa mcm nak potong je lebihan lemak2 tuh dgn pisau..kalau lah blh haih(dreamy face)..i really adore jessica alba's figure
i tried all kinds of pills, jamu etc such as Teh Orang Kampung(dahlah rasa mcm air longkang blerkk..), Slim Tea by Mustika Ratu(xde turun pun),NH Detoxlim(ntah saya rasa ini bukan untuk kurus tp untuk kekalkan berat bdn je..),wearing corset(this is not for kurus but for shaping..some people misunderstood about the using), slimming lotion and Sendayu Tinggi Slimming set(sgt berkesan it really detox,reshape and reduce weight slowly but ongkosnya juga perlu lebih..i used it for three months then i stopped!!)it was like throwing your money into the drain..
after all these tries i realized no shortcut to reduce your weight..only with regular exercise, discipline and good food will help..i just want a diet that can keep my boops from reducing their size,it sounds weird kan???but thats the truth coz i love my boops..any ideas?????
do i have to start my bulemics obsession back???
and now i started back my yoga routine..100 sit ups a day if only i rajin..did some belly dancing in front of the mirror..am looking forward to join sabrina's dance class insyaallah
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yeah you're right i'm not totally happy with my weight..ia sgt lah tak OK!!!!
